Job Evaluation

No, sorry! This isn't part 2 of my squirrel story but have no fear, I will finish it soon and post the end of the story!!!

These are my thoughts today: Being a mom is an... interesting job at times. Sometimes I feel so overwhelmed by the mix of emotions in a day.

It's been a busy few days here. Paul's birthday was yesterday but we couldn't have a special birthday dinner because he had to go to a class and we had stuff to do at church so we are doing his birthday dinner tonight. I'm in the middle of doing 4 loads of laundry (none of which are folded). I have to get a nice meal prepared by 5:15 when Paul's mom is coming over for dinner. The birthday cake is made but I have to make the frosting, frost the cake, and throw on some type of sprinkles or something. The house could use tidying. I have to get the kids from school and get their homework done (which is a challenge unto itself!).

Funny thing, though, it's 2:21 and I'm sitting here writing...not getting any of my "to do" list done!

Not only that, but instead of doing my "list", after lunch, I put on some fun kids music and danced around the living room with the girls and listened to them giggle and watched them dance instead of doing work. Could life get any better than being a human tunnel for your kids to crawl under?

It was perfect until it was time for me to put the girls down for a nap. It was only then that I realized Jessica's blankie was in the washing machine NOT DRY! I tried to talk her into bed without it. Offered her Michael's blankie, stuffed animals, etc... I thought she would be fine. But no. She BAWLED her eyes out because she didn't have her blankie. I have never prayed so hard for the dryer to go into overdrive.

I sat there listening to her cry and wondering what my job review would look like if she were my boss. In that moment, I think I would have been fired! As a mother, do you not know that the blankie is ALWAYS the number one priority?! When I was working, that kind of gross negligence would not have been tolerated, that's for sure!

And as I ran to the dryer to see if the blankie was dry enough do the trick (it was!) I reflected on how thankful I am that Jess is not my boss. Jesus is. He sees the bigger picture of what I do each day. He knows the things that I just couldn't get to in a day and He loves me no matter what. I'm not perfect and He's okay with that. He saw the few minutes Jess and I spent cracking eggs for the birthday cake and the tickle time with Amanda and He is pleased. The laundry may not get done today but there's a bigger picture.

And there's a bigger picture for you, too. No matter what your day looks like, how much of a failure you may feel like or how tired life has made you, know that you are loved more than you can imagine. Isaiah 40:31 says "but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."  Rest today, knowing that God sees it all and he will carry you through.